IDK #2

I hate new beginnings.

It means all the effort and time I wasted on something has been concluded.

It's better to say that I'm afraid of Beginnings because it means there was an ending. The story is done.

Soon...

I have to face a new chapter from a new part of my life.

I have to start all over again. Zero friends. Zero acquaintance.

I am, of course, very afraid.

Starting over again is not a joke. Fear. Anxiety.

I cannot avoid those. 

I'm afraid.

IDK #1

What are the Do's and Dont's in a relationship?

Why does I always feel sad in a relationship? Like I'm always in the giving end of the relationship and never on the taking end?

People tend to abuse you when you love too much. Well maybe it's also a personal choice to be treated that way. You can end the relationship if all it does is make you suffer and cry. But people are sometimes to optimistic. We trust our instincts that we can change a person or they will change for us. That's the expectation that makes us more weak and sad.

We end up being disappointed.

How can I never know what to do to be able to receive love?
It's hard.
I dont know what to do anymore.