Balewalang Pag-ibig

Sa ilang pangyayaring hinarap ko sabuhay ko, ang magmahal ang pinakaKomplikado at pinakaAbnormal na naramdaman ko.
Aaminin ko ang blog na toh ay naglalaman ng puro pagkamuhi at pagkaBITTER sa pag-ibig at sa ibang tao.

Anong nangyari sa mga nakaraang buwan? EWAN.

Parang nasa loob ako ng Mabilis na sasakyan tapos biglang tumigil tapos bumaba ako.
Ngayong nakababa ako sa mabilis na sasakyan , hindi ko alam kung saan ako tumigil.

LIGAW.


Ako ay NALILIGAW.

Dama ko na para akong bata na sinama magGrocery tapos natuwa sa isang lane na puro Candy tapos paglingon ko, wala na si Mama.

bigla kong nararamdaman yung takot.

magwawala sa kakahanap.

Nasa akin kuung Iiyak ako para mahanap o Kikilos para mahanap.

Pero kung ikukumpara toh sa nangyayari ngayon,

Mukhang mas pinili kong kumilos at hanapin yung taong Gusto kong makahanap uli saken.
gusto kong yakapin niya ako at iparamdam na hindi niya ako iiwan.

Pero . . .

Lalo akong natatakot pag lalo akong kumikilos.


Paano kung walang mangyari kahit lahat gawin ko na?


takot na akong masaktan.

Parang lalo kong naiisip na sayang lang ang mga pinagdaanan naming DALAWA.
Natatakot ako...
takot na takot. Swear.

Kailangan ko na bang bumigay o hayaan yung pagkakataon na tulungan ako.
Sa dami ng nakilala kong tao, siya lang ang gusto kong makasama habang buhay.


Sobra na ba ako sa pagpapahirap sakanya?
Sa huli ba, tulad ng iniisip kong ginagawa ng lahat ng tao ay gagawin niya?
Ang Iwan niya ako?


Isa nanaman ba tong Balewalang Pag-Ibig?

O isang tunay na pag-ibig?

it Didn't, Because IT Wouldn't

Sometimes Love can only come to only few people.
It doesn't dwell on the person's status, beliefs or physical appearance.
It simply comes in our lives when we least expect it.

I've seen love stories that I thought would last until the very end of time. I've seen them destroy each other, hurt each others feeling and try to forget each other.

Sadly, I've been one of those people whose love story didn't end well.
I've met wrong many "Right Guy" and loved many "Wrong Guy".

In the middle of those heartbreaks, I was thinking that of all people Why does love seem to find its way out of my life. I was desperate to seek the love I have in my mind. I was close to losing myself to the ideas of love once again.

While I was randomly browsing the web for something worthwhile to do.
I've watched a video I never knew I'll have the chance.

It was a friend of mine and her partner (which was one of my past partner).
They looked genuinely happy.

I was kinda jealous but seeing how blessed they are to find each other, I remained thankful seeing them Happy.

i realized on that moment that We were never that sweet or that in love with each other because we were meant for someone else.
Then Every past relationship of mine finally made sense.

It didn't work because they are not for me.
They are not for me.


I remembered one face that I know who suits me very well.
Someone I know that would work out with my personality perfectly.

He is that guy.

MY GUY.

I want to hold him again and make things work out.

But right now, I shouldn't rush things like before.

Because I'm afraid that if I rushed things up again, i might lose him.


So I will wait. :)

I'm the one who will make things right .
FOR US. <3